I was supposed to write a letter. I think maybe I have been. There is another movie on that makes me cry. I was sitting in my chair. I started feeling sad for what I thought was no reason. I started to think maybe Im bipolar, wait maybe that's a little extreme (lol) Maybe its my hormones, I should get those checked. then I realized it. there's a movie playing in the backround, the plot. woman has some type of illness and is going to commit medically assisted suicide. she had her family all come, basically, for a goodbye party. they all knew the reason for the party. I wasn't paying attention, I just knew that I felt the most horrible sadness and a tear rolled down my cheek. and here I am crying again. I thought about when you were in the final parts and you wanted to see people. I told you I would take you anywhere and you said lets face it people are going to want to see me. I think Margaret may want to come see me (this was all about cleaning the house up). MY ...